Thursday, September 1, 2011

running away

I almost didn't post this, but through the writing of it and studying God's word, I know I need to share it with someone who feels pressed in on every side.  His blessings, ~ashley

Am I the only one who's ever felt like running away?  Like forgetting everything & everyone...maybe live in a nice quiet cave?

I think about Elijah:  a true man of God.  The only prophet of the true living God left at that time.  Only one of two men mentioned in the bible who did not die but who were taken up to heaven.  Chariot of fire to you.  I get comfort from reading about Elijah running away.  Yes, I know it's somewhat sick and twisted that I find comfort in it, but I do.  So there, I said it.

Elijah had just called down fire from heaven, defeated and then slaughtered 450 of Ahab & Jezebel's prophets of Baal & what does he do?  Not only does he run away, he also lays down under a bush, and begs God for death.  I love how God asks him, 'Elijah, what are you doing here?'  (you have to say it with a southern accent.  It makes me think of my mom.)

Ever felt like that?  I have.  Many times.  And it always seems to come right after a great victory.  Uhg!  I feel so totally & completely unworthy I want to run away.  Pretend that God hasn't called me to anything.  Not being a wife, mother, a servant of Him.  Just crawl in my cave and hide.  Would anyone miss me? 

What I noticed is that even though Elijah ran away, he didn't stay away.  God revealed Himself to Elijah from that mountain.  Elijah had seen God's power, but he needed God's gentleness and kindness...and in the words of Forrest Gump:  "God showed up."  He wasn't found in His power and might, but as a gentle whisper.  I wonder what God said to Elijah in that whisper?  All we know is that when Elijah heard it he covered his face with his coat.

It was then God revealed the next step to Elijah.  So like Elijah, I will wait for God's gentle whisper.  I will wait for Him in quietness and true contemplation on His Word, knowing in advance He will show up.      

1 comment:

  1. Ashley - I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one who's ever felt this way! Guess I'm just too scared to admit it. I found your blog via the Triangle article and wanted to send a bit of 'Dove Love' your way! I'll visit often to read your updates and yummy recipes! :)


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